Isn't He wonderful
Do you ever just stand amazed at how much God cares for us, and how He knows exactly where we are in life and what we need? I have to admit that often I overlook this. I have always been a person who struggled with finding time to have my "quite time". If you know me you know that I am the farthest thing from a morning person, however, when I get tired at night I want to immediately go to bed. So I have always debated on when the best time to do my quite time would be, and more times than not the perfect time is never. I am not proud of this and I am in a constant battle to overcome it.
During my time in grad school the perfect time became even harder for me to find. I felt as though I was constantly reading something, writing a paper, or studying. The last thing that I wanted to do, in all honesty, was pick up my Bible and read some more. When I had free time I literally wanted it to be free time. This is not to say that I did not have a desire to get into the Word because I did. I would look over on my night stand and see my Bible and feel so guilty that instead of diving into something meaningful, I was watching some reality TV show.
Whenever I reach a place where other things in my life are winning over my time I can tell a difference in myself, and its a difference that I do not enjoy. I could feel this difference and I could see it in my attitude toward life and people in general. I began to have a deep desire to regain that close and intimate relationship with my Lord, but it seemed so hard to go back to him. Its kind of like that feeling when you haven't seen or talked to someone you once were close to in a while, and then all of the sudden you see them out and you don't know what to do or say. I know that God always has His arms open wide to me, but sometimes I feel so ashamed that I have not made Him the priority that I should.
I have been at home for almost a month now, and I no longer have the burden of school looming over my head constantly. However, I still have found it hard to enter back into that close relationship. On Tuesday night I was actually talking to Adrian about this. In recent months I have seen him personally growing in relationship with Christ and I have been so jealous of his excitement and zeal for the Lord. After talking to him I went to bed thinking tomorrow is the day that I make a change, the day that I start to reclaim my friendship with the Lord.
Wednesday morning came and Wednesday morning went, as did the afternoon and almost the night. My mom came in around 10:30 on Wednesday night with a graduation present from someone at church. Yes, it has almost been a month since I graduate, but a I will except a present at anytime, and more importantly this was about God's timing an knowing what I needed at that very moment. I opened the present to find a devotional book "Jesus Calling". I had actually heard of it from a friend who absolutely loved it. The book is setup so that there is a devotional for each day of the month, meaning you don't start at the beginning of the book if you get it in June. I opened the book up to June 15th, and wouldn't you know it was exactly what I needed to hear, and met me right where I was at that very moment.
In essence June 15th talked about needing to find a quite time. A time to "focus on things that are unseen". It discussed how the world can distract from seeing and hearing the things of the Lord. "When we approach the Lord in stillness and trust, we are strengthened", which is something that I am desperate for at this moment. The scripture for June 15th was 2 Cor. 4:18, Isaiah 6:3, and Psalm 130:5.
God continued to amaze me when I opened this little book today on June 16th. As many of you know, I am currently looking for a job. I have sent out my resume everywhere, but I just don't see to be getting very far. I know that God has a plan, but it I have to admit that sometimes it gets discouraging. But today I read "But I have called you to walk ever so closely with Me, soaking in My Presence, living in My Peace. This is my unique design for you, planned before the world began. I have called each of My children to a differnt' path, distinctly designed for that one" WOW!! Can I just tell you those were probably the most encouraging words I have heard in quite a while, but yet it got even better. I looked at the scripture for the day, and wouldn't you know the verse that I have taken on as my life verse was listed Micah 6:8 along with Ephesians 2:10.
I love how when you are ready to listen to the Lord and when you call on Him he is ready and willing to pour His love on you. I am so glad that I serve a god who wants to have a relationship with me. Thank you God for loving me even when I don't deserve it.
*Side note- I have been thinking about writing this blog all day, and didn't know if I would actually post it or not, but I have obviously decided that I will. I hope that it can bring encouragement to someone.
During my time in grad school the perfect time became even harder for me to find. I felt as though I was constantly reading something, writing a paper, or studying. The last thing that I wanted to do, in all honesty, was pick up my Bible and read some more. When I had free time I literally wanted it to be free time. This is not to say that I did not have a desire to get into the Word because I did. I would look over on my night stand and see my Bible and feel so guilty that instead of diving into something meaningful, I was watching some reality TV show.
Whenever I reach a place where other things in my life are winning over my time I can tell a difference in myself, and its a difference that I do not enjoy. I could feel this difference and I could see it in my attitude toward life and people in general. I began to have a deep desire to regain that close and intimate relationship with my Lord, but it seemed so hard to go back to him. Its kind of like that feeling when you haven't seen or talked to someone you once were close to in a while, and then all of the sudden you see them out and you don't know what to do or say. I know that God always has His arms open wide to me, but sometimes I feel so ashamed that I have not made Him the priority that I should.
I have been at home for almost a month now, and I no longer have the burden of school looming over my head constantly. However, I still have found it hard to enter back into that close relationship. On Tuesday night I was actually talking to Adrian about this. In recent months I have seen him personally growing in relationship with Christ and I have been so jealous of his excitement and zeal for the Lord. After talking to him I went to bed thinking tomorrow is the day that I make a change, the day that I start to reclaim my friendship with the Lord.
Wednesday morning came and Wednesday morning went, as did the afternoon and almost the night. My mom came in around 10:30 on Wednesday night with a graduation present from someone at church. Yes, it has almost been a month since I graduate, but a I will except a present at anytime, and more importantly this was about God's timing an knowing what I needed at that very moment. I opened the present to find a devotional book "Jesus Calling". I had actually heard of it from a friend who absolutely loved it. The book is setup so that there is a devotional for each day of the month, meaning you don't start at the beginning of the book if you get it in June. I opened the book up to June 15th, and wouldn't you know it was exactly what I needed to hear, and met me right where I was at that very moment.
In essence June 15th talked about needing to find a quite time. A time to "focus on things that are unseen". It discussed how the world can distract from seeing and hearing the things of the Lord. "When we approach the Lord in stillness and trust, we are strengthened", which is something that I am desperate for at this moment. The scripture for June 15th was 2 Cor. 4:18, Isaiah 6:3, and Psalm 130:5.
God continued to amaze me when I opened this little book today on June 16th. As many of you know, I am currently looking for a job. I have sent out my resume everywhere, but I just don't see to be getting very far. I know that God has a plan, but it I have to admit that sometimes it gets discouraging. But today I read "But I have called you to walk ever so closely with Me, soaking in My Presence, living in My Peace. This is my unique design for you, planned before the world began. I have called each of My children to a differnt' path, distinctly designed for that one" WOW!! Can I just tell you those were probably the most encouraging words I have heard in quite a while, but yet it got even better. I looked at the scripture for the day, and wouldn't you know the verse that I have taken on as my life verse was listed Micah 6:8 along with Ephesians 2:10.
I love how when you are ready to listen to the Lord and when you call on Him he is ready and willing to pour His love on you. I am so glad that I serve a god who wants to have a relationship with me. Thank you God for loving me even when I don't deserve it.
*Side note- I have been thinking about writing this blog all day, and didn't know if I would actually post it or not, but I have obviously decided that I will. I hope that it can bring encouragement to someone.
Very encouraging! Thank you!
ReplyDeleteI agree! Thank you for posting! <3
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